things to remember

i can't say it better myself
these are the things that i have to keep in mind all the time

1. i'm not alone and these feelings were felt before by others . . it's so hard to imagine that other people have been in my shoes or walked through the path that i'm taking but i need to open my eyes that this is what i need to go through in this process people call "growing up"

2. you never know what anyone is going to do . . sometimes don't even know what i'm going to do . . therefore making life so interesting . . i suppose that's the beauty of it

3. i am most definitely have a issue with not having a grasp on things and situations but at this point in my life, i find the need to let go and allow life to play its part . . only problem is that it's just so darn difficult

4. ah, overthinking - this is a disease i tell you! maybe it's because im a girl which only heightens my illness to continuously thing of all the "ifs", "how", "why", and so on . . my brain does not know how to shut down and mind it's own business . . at times it's a great thing . . makes me ambitious and paint a picture of what and where i want to be . . however i find that because i do overthink a lot of things, it drives me up the wall . . hence the increasing minutes of rolling around in bed . . *le sigh*

*whew* writing this entry made me realize that i constantly make the excuse of "not having enough time" to do things for myself but im noticing that it's more like i need to make the time for me . . it won't happen overnight but slowly but surely, with the possibility that translating my thoughts and feelings into words on this special diary - whether big or small . . will guide me to my personal betterment :)